Growing Up Goddess: March 2014

Happy Thursday y'all! I always really liked Thursdays. I couldn't tell you why.

We're about halfway through March now, and nothing new is really going on, but I figured I'd update as I'm sure you all would love to read me babble about my life.

First things first, I've got a March 2014 Jammin' playlist! Have a listen:

Last week was spring "break." I worked 43 hours (in the calendar week; not the pay period) so it wasn't really much of a break for me, but I had the entire apartment to myself and luckily, as I'm sure I've said billions of times before, I love my job.
Speaking of my job, it's going really really well. Aside from the fact that I still have an "in training" name tag from when mine fell into the toilet.................in January. I have a hunch that the woman in charge of ordering name tags just really doesn't like me (first impression of her was the day that I forgot to take out my lip ring, it was the holidays, I had a line of customers, and she loudly pointed out that I was breaking all the rules and I needed to take ALL of my piercings out and I probably had a tongue ring so I should take that out too............) because when my manager was in charge of ordering our name tags, it only took two weeks to get mine. But it's all good! Because it's just a name tag (though to me it was a symbol of my success and overcoming the terrible 2013 I was trying to conquer)! All is well. I cleaned up the booth last Wednesday and a couple of days ago I sent my manager my final "booth wishlist/project plan" for cleaning up and reorganizing our guest services booth. This year, our company is putting a lot of focus and emphasis on serving the customer, which I think is awesome - so it's just perfect timing that my manager is letting me take charge of cleaning up the booth! I feel really appreciated and respected by my manager and coworkers, and I think that has a lot to do with my love of the job. That, and the fact that I just really love customer service. This job has literally got me questioning my direction in life, considering the fact that I could see myself working at this mall for a long time and making a career out of it.............but that's thinking way too far into the future, so I'm just enjoying the fact that I'm loving the work that I do and the pay is good.
School is another story. I have less prepaid credits left than I do remaining credits for my degree. I hate college. I have hated it since I started. I would just drop out and forget about it but unfortunately the working world will generally deem you worthless without a degree and I don't want to be stuck working part-time college kid jobs for the rest of my life... well, being realistic, I want to be a badass housewife one day. But unfortunately, that's an unrealistic and unacceptable-according-to-society aspiration these days soooooooo I'll just keep saying that I'm a psychology major and one day I want to be a counselor. I do really enjoy psychology. I also really enjoy sociology, and I've gotten to take a lot of really interesting classes under both majors. I just wish I could've figured out what I wanted to do with my life earlier in college so I wouldn't be stuck stressing about not being able to pay for college after three years of not having to worry about it.
See? College sucks. We need more options. I deserve more options. Half the reason I'm running out of credits is because I would bite off more than I could chew and then find myself in such a deep depressive state that I'd just panic and give up and drop classes on the withdrawal deadline. I'm healthy now and I wouldn't do that now... but, damn, I deserve some flexibility. And thanks to all of the mental battles I faced in college, my GPA is not even close to good enough for a scholarship. It's depression. Oh well.
On a happier note, lots of rattie socializing has been going on in the Lair of the Goddess, and that's been much appreciated.
I don't think I have much more to talk about, and I need to get ready for work, so enjoy the pictures from the last couple of weeks below!

Have a lovely Thursday!

Things That Suck: It’s spring break and I’m scheduled to work 43 hours. (side note: our pay periods are Saturday through Friday - I had this weekend off so in our work week I was only scheduled 35 hours… which is still kind of a lot)
Things That Don’t Suck: I will be paid slightly above minimum wage for those 43 hours, which is enough for me. I enjoy my job. I love my job. I am fully capable of conquering this week.
Things That Suck: The very pills that help me to function are also the pills that can ruin a Sunday for me if I choose to sleep in one hour.
Things That Don’t Suck: After years of struggling with an overactive, self-destructive brain a couple of years ago, I finally found a doctor and medicines that wouldn’t make my life for me, but enable me and give me the power to make the life that I want.
Things That Suck: I have goals that may or may not be realistic, and that’s pretty stressful.
Things That Don’t Suck: I have goals. I have real, actual goals that I am working toward. I have goals that I am passionate about; goals that I am inspired by.
Things That Suck: My psychiatrist had another medical emergency last week, on a morning that I was scheduled to see him for refills and discussion. The only other psychiatrist in the practice is his wife. (I’m not sure what his medical emergencies are, but after seeing him for the first time after his last one, they are quite worrisome and I really hope they are able to get it figured out - he’s a very very nice, middle-aged man, with a very very nice middle-aged wife, and they both run a great practice).
Things That Don’t Suck: My psychiatrist’s receptionist/secretary/person who calls when they have to cancel your appointment is very nice and accommodating. I have health insurance. I have the means to go to the psychiatrist on a monthly basis like I have to.
Things That Suck: I have the household dreams and plans of someone who owns a large, spacious home. With a room dedicated specifically to my own personal creativity, peace, and relaxation.
Things That Don’t Suck: I can (usually) realize that I only have one quite large bedroom to myself and am creative enough to make do and figure things out to make it work for me!
Things That Suck: Winter coats, high heels, and other personal items that you’d probably sell/donate/throw away except for the fact that these things are expensive and you actually do need them a couple of times a year.
Things That Don’t Suck: I have winter coats and high heels and other items that I only need for special occasions.
Things That Suck: I do not have enough storage for these high heels and winter coats.
Things That Don’t Suck: One day, I may have enough storage for these high heels and winter coats.
Things That Suck: I woke up an hour before my alarm clock was supposed to go off.
Things That Don’t Suck: I did not wake up an hour after my alarm clock was supposed to go off.
Things That Suck: I gained some weight over the holidays/in recovering for the holidays.
Things That Don't Suck: I decided to simply be more vigilant and attentive to my diet and activity levels and lost three pounds this week!
Things That Suck: I do not have all of the pens.
Things That Don't Suck: I have an ample supply of pens.
Things That Suck: I don't have enough energy or time to read as much as I want to.
Things That Don't Suck: I am able to wake up every morning and put aside a couple of minutes to read my Simple Abundance book, which helps keep me centered, focused, and aware of all of the beauty that is around me in my life! (I seriously recommend this book to every woman in the world. Even just reading it makes me feel better. I believe she has written one for men, as well.)
Things That Suck: I desperately need to figure out a way to budget my money that works for me but I can't figure out the best strategy for myself.
Things That Don't Suck: I actually have money to manage, and a regular income that I am earning on my own.
Things That Suck: Paying for computers.
Things That Don't Suck: I am months ahead of my own plan for paying for my computer!

So, it's Monday, and we're all tired. Plenty of things suck. Trust me - if anyone knows that, it's me! However, for every little thing that sucks, you can find at least one thing that does not suck. I woke up with all of these complaints, worries, and thoughts in my head. The devil on my shoulder was trying to stress me out. I soon came back with a list of positives to fight my list of negatives; now I feel a lot less anxious about my upcoming month AND I got to post a blog!

I encourage you all to think about all of the things that don't suck when you, like me, have a little jerk on your shoulder whispering everything there is to be anxious, sad, angry, or upset about. No matter what you are stressing out about right now, there is something good happening.

So smile, be happy, and if you would like to donate some storage space for my collection of beautiful high heels and poofy winter coats, hit me up.

What sucks today? What doesn't suck? What are you thankful for? Feel free to leave a comment and let me know!

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And now, a visual review of the past week or so:

I am very proud of the paper organization that I was able to whip together with limited resources!

Ryan and

The lady rats got a new bed and it's freaking adorable.

I had an awful headache yesterday from sleeping in and taking my meds late. Alllllllll day. So I slapped a cooling gel sheet on my forehead and built stuff.

Annie!

My month. It's going to be nuts.

My roommates are gone for spring break and left me a nice little note!

The laundry room desperately needs some fixing up. Why do we have so many vacuums?!

I re-did my file box this weekend. I am very happy with it. I just wish I could justify the cost of those pretty colored file folders! But damn, are they expensive.

The rainbow folders were my first file folder purchase. I thought I was getting a great deal - 12 for like $8 at Walmart. I thought it was a great deal because these were the only folders that Walmart had.